It's hard to love someone. It's harder to give up one person. It's harder to fall in love with another person. It takes more than love but courage. I just do n’t have the courage.
Putting on the headphones, I was sitting quietly on the seat, listening to the love song of the healing department. It was n’t me or how I was hurt, but I always thought that I was the only person in my life. False, friendship is the fragility that can be provoked in a few words. I am just myself. This is not narcissism because I also hate myself very much. In fact, I would rather be anyone than myself.
By the way, there is one more thing, I'm Les, a woman who only likes women, more specifically, T
"Ama, are you in a bad mood ?!" the next classmate asked me with a worried look
"No, I'm in a daze." This is my usual answer. I cover my vulnerability with funny and lively methods, so I quickly get familiar with it in class, but often, I am still alone, as long as I If you do n’t go looking for others, people wo n’t come to me. It ’s always been like this. I think sometimes I ’m used to it.
This class is an outdoor class. I walk alone on campus. It ’s the same. No matter how I look forward to it, no one will wait for me outside the classroom. I ’m used to it, I ’m really used to it.
I ’m going to play basketball this time, and I ’m divided into groups. Still no one came to me. I took the basketball to the basket and shot quietly. Occasionally, I would have a few chats to play, but soon gone
Back in the classroom, I used funny to take everyone through the day, returned home, habitually dropped myself to bed, retracted, thinking about everything today, smiled bitterly, but tears still shed involuntarily, this is me What you must do every day can be said to be a habit, or to vent
"Today, a new classmate is transferred to our class. Her name is: Bai Zhiqi, everyone applauds her." The transfer student looks good, at least it is Zheng Zheng in your mouth.
"Then I see, you can sit behind the grandma first, grandma, you can't bully others!" Grandma is my wrong number, our teacher is a novice teacher, just like us as friends
"Hello ~ Teacher, I'm so kind, how can I bully people!" After that, I looked at the teacher with a helpless expression, and the whole class laughed.
"Hello!" She walked over and smiled slightly at me, I admit that I was a bit silly, very cute and good-looking, I was not not interested in others, but they were fleeting, and I did n’t feel it after a while I do n’t know if I like it
"Hmm ..." I looked at her a little uncomfortably, then turned my head and "pretend" to listen carefully to the class guide, and she walked past me and sat behind me
At the end of the class, a few people who came to talk to her came to talk to her. As a friend in their mouths, of course, I turned to talk together, and the content of the chat was nothing more than
"How come you are here ?!"
"Because our house moved"
"Where do you live?"
"At the intersection of XX Road and XX Street" Um? Isn't it near my house? !!
"Do you have a boyfriend?!"
"No, I like women" pit ?? Come out directly !!!
"..." Everyone was dumbfounded and silent
"Then you have a girlfriend, Luo?" The one who went back to me first, continued to ask
"No" After she gave us a big smile, just when the school bell rang, they went back to their seats.
And I also turned around and kept thinking: she likes girls, then I ... no, it's unlikely, it probably won't like me, but ... I seem to like her a little, roar ~~ annoying, I decided No longer bothering my head, just lie down and sleep
Finally it was time to go to school. I walked to the place where I usually parked and just took out the helmet. She patted me on the shoulder and hurt me for the next jump. The helmet almost fell off.
"Well, can you take me home?" She looked at me with her big eyes. Why is it a bit watery ?! Is it my illusion?
"Oh! Where is your family?" I never refuse girls unless I hate them
"Across your house ?!"
"I moved in last night"
"Why didn't I see any sign of moving?" Generally, the moving was not very loud, and yesterday there was no meowing.
"Because I only have one suitcase and all the furniture in it, so long as people go in."
"Oh ... huh? Then how do you know I live opposite?"
"I saw you when I was out this morning, but you seem to be listening to music, so you didn't see me." Hey ~ I just listen to music as soon as I go out, except at school
"Oh ~ let's go!"
When I got home, I took a shower, but her appearance kept appearing in my head. I picked up the quilt and covered my head. I suddenly heard the doorbell. Who is so late ?!
"Well ... I ca n’t watch TV at your house, my TV suddenly broke down." She stood at the door, looking at me with the expression of a world war
"Oh!" I opened the door and let her in. She rushed to the TV and turned on the TV to watch a replay of a famous eight o'clock.
I sit helplessly next to her, watching TV and dazed
"You live alone ?!" During advertising hours, she looked around my house and asked me
"Well, you live alone!"
"how do you know?!"